Him :)

He plays my keys perfectly erupting from the most beautiful melody.

Spirit Can't Be Confined

So, I don't go to church reguarly, but I am connected to my power source. I don't pick up my religion on Sunday and put it down through the week only to reconnect on Sunday again. I stay connected. I'm aware of His presence and I understand that where He is I am also, always; it is impossible not to be. I do not knock people who go to church reguarly, as a matter of fact, I encourage it to a certain degree, but I will say, God speaks outside of those four walls as well as he does within the four walls. His voice is not limited to a certain space, a church, a setting, a place. Spirit is unlimited and is everywhere; in everything... YES, in everything. I won't argue that point. I've had things in my mind that I've not spoken to another and God answered through someone I barely know, talk to or deal with," and I know that this was just his many signs to me that he hears and is concerned. He sends me signs and signals to let me know that He does..... I love How very real spirit is and I crave to always have an ear to hear & see and recognize without being prejudice about who the message is being sent through or by! If the messenger is a child, I can receive; if he messenger is a drunk, I can receive, if the messenger is YOU, I can receive. Don't judge the messenger because the messenger is not behind a mic or in the pulpit. Be open to receive answers God in the many forms, colors, shapes, and sizes that he presents himself in. Spirit is energy, you are energy, I am energy and we are all connected. Open your heart to receive him and don't limit him.

Switchwords!

I was browsing the Internet at work looking for positive affirmations and came across "Switchwords".... one word or a phrase that are used to affirm are bring about manifestation in ones life. For example, "count" signifies money and causes money to flow into your life. I will list them below when I finish telling my success with these. There is a dollar amount that resonates in my spirit and I don't know why but I know I am going to have this specific amount of money. I don't know how or when but I know it's coming so I try to condition my mind and activate the universe by stating my affirmations and using these switch words to send out signal to the universe that I KNOW and trust this to be so! I am so thankful for the little amounts of money that are flowing into my life as a result. I signed a lease for my new apartment and paid an initial deposit of $240.00 but a day before I was to move in, I realized this apartment was just too small to accomodate the people in my life. So, I asked my landlord could I stay in my current apartment even though I'd given my notice and he said YES. Then I contacted my new landlord to be who I did not hear back from until a day later when he text me saying he could not give me back my deposit and could hold me liable for lease payment. I did not trip and was like okay. Mind you all that day I woke up on this really energetic tip expecting great things to happen and knowing they would. I was quoting " Findivin" which also activates the flow of money, all day long. After he'd sent me that text approximately fifteen minutes later he text me back asking for my address, they decided to repay me my deposit. I equate that to my mental state! These words and phrases work. It's all about your mindset and your thoughts. It is very important to stay postive no matter what the current circumstances may be. A no can be turned into a yes just by your mindset. Set your mind on receiving!

Click on the link provided for a list of switchwords: http://www.powerfulintentions.org/group/switchwords

Changes :)

Well, lots has changed over this past month both bittersweet and exciting. For one, I was going to move into this nice quaint one bedroom apartment downtown, however, that has changed, and I am going to be in my current place for a while longer. It's all good and for good reason which brings me to the next bit of news.... my boyfriend of two years (09/27/) will be moving here finally and I am so excited about that. It's like the stars aligned and everything is just falling into place like the perfect puzzle piece. He however is closing his business which is the bitter part, but is opening up a bigger and better one here in a couple of months :) YAY, we've been doing the long distance thing for two years and it's been a challenge some of the time, but we've worked through and managed to get to the point he said he was working towards and that is being here with his girls and me. I am so elated, especially for the girls so that they can have their dad as a more active presense in their lives YIPPEE!!! Which is another reason I decided to stay in my bigger apartment. My children aren't here but when they do visit everyone will have room. I'm just truly excited. Now that things are calming down a bit, I can start back working on my book. It's been on pause as well due to all the transitions. I'm so looking forward to the future and all it has in store :)

Rain

When it rains it pours and how do you handle that? Do you grab your umbrella and and keep it moving, or do you resort to find shelter until the rain stops? Do you mumble and complain or do you thank God for the rain knowing that the rain is necessary and won't last forever? Just like the natural rain is needed to promote growth and wash away impurities so are the showers of our life. If we grab an umbrella and keep it moving, the storms won't provide that much discomfort. By umbrella, I mean positive attitude, and thankfulness even in the midst of. We can actually find peace during the midst of the storm. Even though we complain about the rain, it still manages to fall until the universe releases it to stop. Same with the storms of our life..... they won't stop, they will come and we have to learn how to deal with them. They are a normal part of life. Although they may provide a bit of inconvenience and maybe some discomfort, we need them. No need complaining about them, just prepare for them and know that the rain will pass, the storm clouds won't loom, and the sun will shine brightly afterward.

I DID IT!!

I set a goal to get up in the morning and go to the gym and I accomplished my goal. I have woke up everyday this week and made it to the gym by 7:00. Even when I did not feel like it, I did it and this made me think about my other goals. In order to get where I want to be, I will have to do things I may not want to do. I am willing to go the extra mile to get there. Looking forward to working out all next week also. I made a personal goal to add an extra five minutes to my work out on the elliptical machine. The first day I got on it, I could only do five minutes and today, I did fifteen minutes. I look forward to a leaner, toner, healthier me. Watch me work :)

Simple Pleasures

Okay so on my venture to pursue a more healthier lifestyle, I came across this very cheap but delcious snack from McDonald's. I was craving ice cream but substituted the ice cream for this, and I am now addicted. It is a cheap addiction so I won't complain. The strawberries and blueberries in this parfait are very fresh and then to top it off, it comes with granola that is slightly sweetened. I love it, and you should try it.

Sexy Sleeping Space

I spend quite a bit of time in my bedroom. Sometimes neglecting other parts of my apartment so for me, when I do get my "own" place the bedroom would definitely be a space where I would focus the most attention on. The bedroom is a space that provides relaxation, peace, solitude, rest, intimacy, etc. It has various uses so the design element in the space should be created to accomodate its many uses. I love this space in particular because of the "space" in the room. It is not cluttered and it is a very open space. I am not able to sleep in a room if it is messy. Everything is neat and organized. I could easily see myself relaxing on this bed.....knocking boots on this bed....resting on this bed YES, and even eating on this bed with a nice dinner tray of course. I tend to favor darker colors in bedrooms only letting the light in when I want it.This room is appealing to me because there are no windows and the room is dark but there is a hint of light from the opening. There seems to be a lot of storage space on the side on the left wall and storage space is equally important. This bed is so sexy to me with the dim lighting that overshadows the headboard! I pictured something but I can not share it with the world... but yeah... this rooms brings some things to mind. I love to read so the idea of the small seated chair although I would prefer a chair with back support adds a nice touch. I love the everything about this bedroom.

Inspired Thought

Praying for God to release creativity within every fiber of my being. I want this book to come to fruition soon. I know it will not take years for me to release all that is on the inside of me. I woke up at 3:30 this morning thinking about my blog, and how much of what I put into my blog will be in my book. I was thinking about book titles, covers and such. I have toyed around with a couple of titles, but am not compelled to use them as titles. I just pray for God to release something in me that gets me writing something that will inspire and change people. I don't want to just write for the heck of it; I want to cause a positive impact that provokes change.

Our "Diversion" Excursion

Little Rock is very underestimated. There are great little restuarants in nooks and cranny's that are overlooked. I happen to date a natural explorer who doesn't mind escaping into these places which is great for me because I tend to stay in my central location, but with him, I've come across some nice places in my city. One of which is called "Diversions Wine Martini and Tapas Bar." It is simply a very chic, elegant and trendy bar that could be moved and sat right in New York. The decor is top notch featuring chandeliars that rotate, flooring that is impeccable with little sparkles engrained in the paint, and art work featuring a "local" artist that adorns the walls. The color scheme is very warm and inviting. The bar is marble that is nicely lit underneath that creates a nice sexiness. It is not a large establishment but perfect for "Diversions." My boyfriend and I went on Tuesday evening and sat in the back where there are two nice lounging couches that face each other... very intimate. On this evening they had a wine and pairing tasting where you get a choice of three wines and three tapas for $10.00 a piece. The tapas offered were: Duck Breast Prosciutto; Bacon wrapped Pork Tenderloin;Beef Carpaccio. These were absolutely amazing, namely the Bacon Wrapped Pork Tenderloin. For our wine choices, we had moscato, and a white riesling. We asked for dessert afterwards, but they had no dessert menu but as we were leaving the bartender had two small shot glasses of a lime shot that served as dessert and ON THE HOUSE!!! I recommend Diversions to anyone in the Little Rock area who wants to simply have a nice, quiet, relaxing evening out in a sophisticated area. It will not disappoint. Address: 2611 Kavanaugh Blvd
Little Rock, AR 72205

Keep It Real!

There is a situation that someone I know has and because she is not keeping it real. It will affect a lot of people in the process. If she would have simply followed her gut and kept it real in the first place, a lot of heartache would be spared. I try to look at the coin from every side before I make any decision that affects me as well as others. I "try" to follow my inner because it never leads me astray. Now, she has made a lot of MAJOR life altering decisions this past few months and now her mind has changed or has it? Has she always felt the way she feels now but made moves based on what others would think? I am trying to live my life learning through others bad choice... It always causes me to look deeper at myself and how I treat others. Just simply keep it real always!!!

I love Interior Design!!!

I think you should be able to walk into a persons home without having met them and the space should tell a story about them based on the design. I have always loved a nice living space whereby a person takes time to pick out art work, color schemes, and pieces of furniture that speak to them. We spend a lot of time at home making memories, entertaining and relaxing and these spaces should be designed in such a way that brings us joy & peace! When you walk into your home it should be a safe haven of sorts, and a space that you enjoy yourself. I actually love the space I live in and apparently others do as well because I am complimented or asked can I decorate for them all the time. It is unexpected but like that nice cherry on atop of a ice cream Sunday. I am not able financially to design on the scale and tastes that I would like to but I am able to look online and see spaces that speak to me. Each week I am going to feature a space that is reflective of me. I would love to go to school for interior design.



I chose this particular space because of the color scheme. Deep browns and oranges are colors that seem very warm and inviting and also adds depth. It is simple but chic all at the same time. There is lots of lighting if you wanted to bring in a different mood and I also like how they incorporated the black and white. It adds a nice flair. The little accessory pieces added in such as the fruit on the table and the simple mirror on the wall are very minimal but makes this room come together. I could see myself snuggled up on that comfy couch with a book and a nice cup of chai tea.

Exploring the idea of vegetarianism.....

I eat meat, but I can live without it and apparently we do not need meat to live. I am not into the politics of being a vegetarian but rather want to explore a more healthier lifestyle and do things that ulimiately make ME a better ME. I have control on what I put into my body, that choice belongs to me. It is solely up to me on how I healthy I want to be. I am armed with bits and pieces of knowledge to get me started on this journey. I also have a couple of veteran vegetarian friends who I am sure will help me along the way. Honestly, I can do without the "meat." I am going to try this out for thirty days trying new recipes and substituting along the way. I am embarking on somewhat of a foreign territory as I know I will have to educate myself so that I will give my body all the nutrients that I need. Why not choose to do better if you know better? Our environment suffers because of certain choices we make and I want to be the change I want to see in the world. So, as I venture onto this new journey of vegetarianism, I will share my thoughts, sucesses, failures, recipes that I've tried, weight loss I have experienced in the process, and how I feel overall. This should be fun :)

Writer's Block

I am in the process of writing a book and when I initially started this process, it seemed as if the words flowed from me like water from a sink. It was natural for me, but now I have reached a point to where there is nothing there. I pull up my rough draft to add to it, but there is no inspiration to write. I am sure this is natural; however, I am frustrated at not being able to come up with the words to put on paper. Surely, this is only temporary and I will be able to find that place again where words flow naturally. Until then, writer's block has taken over me.

Get Ready Get Set Go!!!!!

Reality has set in & my body is doing all kinds of things it has never done before!!!!! When I look in the mirror at myself naked there is no longer a look of adoration, but a look of, "Michelle you know better." This has nothing to do with me not accepting myself but rather me noticing things about myself I want to approve upon! Huge difference!! I am getting ready to challenge myself to get my yella behind up and hit the gym every morning at 6:30 PERIOD! No excuses! There is no reason for me to get out of shape at 35 when all along my body has been okay to me! Not only am I doing this for appearance but also for my overall wellbeing. I want to ward off any disease that decides it wants to creep up due to my inactivity. HERE WE GO! Tomorrow, June 30th, I start with me. I am going to take a picture of myself and post it here before, then at the end of July posting another.

Just Do It!

Just do it was a slogan coined by the Nike Shoe brand years ago. Today this slogan is relevant to me and MY life, and where I am currently, in a state of acting. I am no longer having to be validated by people, or have people tell me what it is I should be doing. I know what it is and am "JUST DOING IT." What I am doing is for me to know and you to find out later. It does finally involve me 100%. Finally moving beyond dreaming, and thinking, and have been catapulted into manifestation. I can see myself moving higher, and it wasn't until I saw it that I was prompted to act! I go to bed with a vision and wake up excited to move forth in it. I am happy for myself. :) JUST DO IT!

LOVE

My name is Michelle Davis and I am an addict.
I am addicted to love with no desire to recover.
I drown in love, suffocate until I find no breath in love.
I scuba dive in love,
Like a coal miner dig deep for love,
Like Einstein, I think in love,
Like two brand new lovers, I feel in love.
Yes, I am a love addict, and I want to forever be a slave to this habit.
No intervention needed, I intend to keep it. Continuously inject myself with it, all strung out and drunk in it.
I Bathe in it, engulf and surround myself with it.
Yes, it is addictive, no way if you open your heart you can prevent it.
I am and always will be an addict to love.
And in love more and more with every passing minute.

All Good!

This too is passing and we are now back to where we were. ;)

Back to the basics!

IN April 2008, I was in a very positive place. I changed my way of thinking and it was my daily goal to be a light to everyone I met. It was working for me, and I think I will return to that way of thinking. Negative thinking is not what's up at all. Reading " The Secret," changed my life. If you've grown accustomed to one way of thinking, it can be a challenge to undo it, but I like the results I get when I am on that positive frequency so I will stay there no matter what.

I am whole, perfect, powerful, strong, loving, harmonious and happy.

Crying out to you

Well Lord, I don't know what will come of this temporary separation between my baby and I, but I trust that all is well and all will be well. It is taking great constraint not to pick up the phone just to hear his voice or to text him a hello to see if he slept well, but in my spirit, I feel that space is needed. I have been extra clingy and needy for no good reason. God, my heart hurts right now because I don't know the outcome, but I do know you. I know that when I prayed for a man to come into my life who would make me a better person, you sent him and I don't believe in my heart this is the end of us. I believe it is a start to a new beginning. I am using this time to focus on me, and my insecurities, and selfishness, and praying that you will allow me to see myself. I know you've not blessed me with a love this great only to take it away. I ask you to forgive me for abusing the gift you've blessed me with and I pray you will allow me the opportunity to start anew. God I thank you for sending him to me and I pray for a new beginning.

It is well

Reminding myself to just "BE" and focus on the good things in my life. It is well with my soul and God is a restorer. I am trusting God to handle every situation in my life and to give me peace of mind while he is doing it. I know HE will keep me in perfect peace as long as I keep my mind stayed on him. I will not speak death or think death. I will focus on life in every area of my life.

Voyage

I am going on a journey within for the next week or so to rid myself of some lingering insecurities. I want to be the best me for me and those in my life. I no longer want to be the reason why relationships end. I am willing to look at myself with a magnifying glass and see things that I otherwise wouldn't see in order to make ME better. My first marriage has left me me with scars and insecurities that are somehow managing to creep their way into my current relationship, and is causing problems. I WILL NOT ALLOW THIS TO HAPPEN!!! I am pulling myself back from everything, everybody, that is a distraction at this point and am going to do some self healing. No facebook, no twitter, no nothing. NO extra t.v. phone calls, etc. It's all about me getting myself together for my future to be. I'm going on a voyage.

Dark & Light

THREE THINGS CAN NOT LONG BE HIDDEN:
THE SUN, THE MOON and THE TRUTH and to that I'll ADD MICHELLE.

That girl above exists both here and there simutaneously. In and out of consciousness, from darkness to light, I can go from one extreme to another in a matter of seconds like the speed of lightening. When feeling insecure, I've mastered the skill of retreating into a dream state only to arise feeling stronger than a one hundred year old oak tree. My thoughts are my safe haven, a place I go to refuel and find strength needed to face day to day encounters. I can go to that place without leaving physically and nobody would ever know. I am always torn between here and there, darkness and light. This picture gives a very accurate of the person I WAS & AM NOW. My childhood and early adult life was very dark although there were always moments of light, darkness often hovered nearby. I needed the darkness to help me develop into that butterfly. I have realized a most important lesson: The darkness in my life helped me to define what light was. So just as light is necessary, so is darkness. I embrace them both. They are both part of my existence both past, present and almost certain future. I have been brought out of darkness into the marvelous light and this one thing I know for sure, I WILL ALWAYS EMERGE LIGHTER THAN I WAS BEFORE. I am the face of both sides of that coin. I am oil and water. I am cold and hot. I am in and out. I am up and down. I am consciousness and unconsciousness. I am that I am.



Peace, Love, Light and yes, darkness.

TYSON SAID HE LOVED MY HAIR!!!

I was at a fashion show that TYSON BECKFORD hosted with KORTO MOMOLU and he said he loved my hair!!!! HELP ME LORD :)

I wish I were Blacker and hair was Nappier !

Disclaimer: As a black woman, I have truly learned to accept myself for who I am so this blog is in no way inidicative of me not loving who I am because I do.

HOWEVER, I wish I was darker and I wish my hair was nappier. YES, I said it. In a society where fairer skin is praised and "good hair," is more accepted, I wish I were the exact opposite. I have no idea why darker skinned people are scorned, looked down upon or deemed as less beautiful. I think they are the most beautiful people in the world. They exemplify strength, and a pureness like none other. Black is truly beautiful to me. As the old adage goes, " the blacker the berry, the sweeter the juice." I am proud of my color because it represents the many hues and shades found within the black race, but I do wish my tone were a little darker. My hair is fine and my curls are defined, but I desire for it to be even kinkier. I find that kinkier hair does hold styles better, and YES I have accepted my hair, but STILL the kinkier the better. I truly do LOVE nappy hair. Just had to share because I saw a picture that inspired me to post this. The most beautiful chocolate nappy headed woman I'd ever seen and something about her picture immediately spoke of pure, and true beauty. YES, us lighter skinned folks got it going on as well, but something about that darkness :)

Prophecy to me K'Jon...

Now the tide is coming near
I see the waves flowing
Out there on the ocean
I know my ship is coming in (coming in baby)
Just pass the horizon
And right where the sky ends
Cause out there on the ocean
Know my ship is coming in
But don't leave me hanging
I've been waiting to long
But this moment
My ship has finally come

John "FOOT IN MOUTH" Mayer

John Mayer's racist sentiments really offended me in that I "was" a fan of his music. His lyrics refreshing, unique and touching; however, I can find another artist with the same lyrical magic. I dare not entertain myself by the sounds of a man who find black women distasteful.... yes, he made reference to not having a hood pass.... WTF? The he said that his penis was like a white supremacist, it would never go near a black woman... That is the most ignorant analogy I've heard in my life. It speaks volumes on how he really feels about women of color. I think he fails to realize that he has a fanbase that resembles the color of a rainbow... it's not just white women who love his music. I prefer black men to white men, but I dare not liken my vagina to anything with such a negative connotation! WE all have our preferences and shouldn't be knocked because of it, but the issue with John is the use of such racist laced verbiage... I am being told that this is not the first time that he's said something ignorant.... I am not a fan any longer. He went too far! Apology, REJECTED!

Less Than A Woman

Does it make me less that a woman to admit I want your body laying next to me at night?

Does it make me less than a woman to admit I want to come home to you when I get home from a long stressful day to hear you tell me everything is going to be alright?

Does it make me less than a woman to admit that I don't want to grow old alone and want you to grow old right alongside me?

Does it make me less than a woman to admit that I want you to be the lead man in my life as I stand beside you being your biggest cheerleader?

Does it make me less woman to admit I like to go out alone with my girls but I prefer to go out with you because I love how we are when we are together, I love the people looking at us admiringly, and all the compliments we get?

Does it make me less than a woman to admit that I lwant to take care of my you by cooking for you, cleaning for you, stroking your ego, supporting you in your goals, holding you up when you feel weak, allowing you to expose your vulnerabilities to me?

Does it make me less than a woman to want to go to church with you by my side who I love to see worship and praise God, and a man I know prays for me and doesn't mind praying with me?

Does it make me less than a woman to admit that I want to be united in holy matrimony with the love of my life and show the world an example of what "love" can be? Will be, and is supposed to be?

Does it make me less than a woman to admit to you that you that I think about you all day everyday?

Does it make me less than a woman to admit that I daydream about what our life will be like together?

Does it make me less than a woman that even when I don't feel loved by you, that makes me love you even more?

Does it make me less than a woman to admit that out of the men I've encountered in my life you are the only man that matters! Since you have been in my life, I have no memory of before, just now and after.

Does it make me less than a woman to admit that I look at myself in the mirror and tell myself, he thinks your are beautiful?

Does it make me less than a woman to admit, I can't imagine my life without you?

If all these things make me less than a woman, I will accept that because I know I am more than a woman because I'm connected to you. I will never stop loving you.

My Quotes

" When you rise to the top, don't forget the one who stood on the ground with you." Michelle Davis

Today's Relationship Affirmation

I will build up and not tear down.
I will always show love.
I will be aware of my attitude at all times, even in difficult times.

Tears for Haiti, I cry!

The images of dead, hungry & injured haitians affect me, I cry.

Children disconnected from parents who are now lost and displaced, I cry!

Watching the looks of desperation in their eyes, wondering if God will hear their cries, I Cry!

Seeing bloody, limpless & lifeless bodies pulled from the rubble, I cry!

Hearing the stories of how their lives flashed before them, I cry!

When will help arrive before other Haitians have to die, I cry!

God please bless the Haitian, boys, girls, women & men, I cry!

January 24, 2010

On this day forty years ago, little did I know that my soul twin would be born. The man who would show up in my life and take me by storm. The man who would love every inch of pain away. The man who would brighten each and every one of my days. The man who knows every part of me. The man who knows what I am capable of being. God knew that I needed this man and this man needed me. It would take us would take thirty eight years to connect and realize we needed each other. He was preparing this man to be able to love me that way I needed to be loved, kiss me the way I needed to be kissed, hold me the way I needed to be held, honor me the way I needed to be honor. God formed and fashioned me through my trials and tribulations to be equipped to love this man. To speak life to this man, to hold this man up in prayer, to open my heart up so that his love could flow in. God knew that we needed each other. I am so glad that God created this man to be. The day he did that he knew that he would love me. Happy Birthday to my lover, my friend, my everything... !

Spiritual Connection

Grew up in a home where God was at the forefront so spirituality is a HUGE part of my life. It is embedded in me and when I was praying for a mate, spirituality was a huge connection that we had to share; no ifs, ands, buts about it. I didn't particuarly care about the denomination part of it, but he would have to know who God was, and be able to reach out to him. So, when my desires were manifested and this man arrived in my life I was elated. I am so grateful to have a man in my life who is spiritually connected, and doesn't mind allowing me to see that side of him and further, experience God with him. That brings about an intimacy that is unmatched. Spirituality is the tie that binds us moreso than any physical tie every could. We are using this week as a week of fasting and reflecting. We are so in sync it is amazing to me. He text me this morning at 6:30 (highly unusual because he is late riser) I woke up at 4:30. He text me and said baby, let's pray from 6:30 to 6:40 individually. That was the most beautiful, and powerful and confirming thing yet. It was a very defining part of our relationship in that it reminds me to be VERY grateful for what I have. Most married people don't have our connection.

Haitian Crisis

I must dedicate this space to my feelings concerning the recent natural crisis that affected so many Haitians. I was so saddened to hear about the news of this earthquake shaking up and destroying a country who is already poverty stricken & trying to recover from hurricanes that they were hugely impacted by as well. The media is doing a great job in covering this story as we can all get a view and understand the sense of urgency when it comes down to donating money to assist in helping so many impacted by the earthquake. There are several ways to donate that are convenient for everyone.

Of course, there is always going to be negativity in the news as well, and I for the life of me can't figure out why any negativity can come from something already so hugely devastating. For instance, Rush Limbaugh ( LUCIFER IN HUMAN FORM) comments were totally stupid!!! Yes, the US troops are generally used to defend and protect our nation; however, the US is known for supporting other nations in crisis and providing AID so why stop now. I can't help but wonder if his comments were in part due to the race of the people....hmmmmm!!! Yes there are organizations such as the RED CROSS set up to do this job; however, due to the extent of this disaster, and the urgency, all hands should be on deck and no-one should be againt is. He is a staunch racist liberal who needs to be banned from the airways.. One thing I can applaud him for, and that is being consistently ignorant. Then of course you have christian zealots such as Robert Roberts, who said that bascially these people got what they deserved due their long history of witch craft!!! I would rebut that but for the sake of causing a riot on the WORLD WIBE WEB, I will leave it this, God is a God of love. He doesn't cause this type of devastation as a means of punishment. If that were the case, there would be no world to speak of... ONE WORD, SLAVERY. Where does the punishment come in there?!

I will not drag that post out giving energy to these very obvious heartless human beings. The most important thing is helping these people out who are is dire need of the worlds assistance. So many people have lost lives, lost loved ones, lost homes, and we all can do our part. It's all about giving back.

Contact your local Red Cross to give back!!!!

Today, the boyfriend and I will starting on a waterfast for the duration of this week. For those of you who don't know what a fast is, this is the definition: Fasting is voluntarily not eating food for varying lengths of time. Fasting is used as a medical therapy for many conditions. It is also a spiritual practice in many religions.

My reason for fasting is 1.) Lack of energy, increased headaches, and aches in joints AND 2.) greater spiritual clarity.

The fast will be challenging but beneficial & the benefits far outweigh the challenges. I am geared up and ready to tackle the uncomfortablity for a few days in order to see the positive side that this fast will present. Even more, I am glad to be doing this with my sweetie. There will be no physical getting down during this time either...... WE CAN DO IT, yes we can.

God Send

I've blogged before about insecurity issues. I acknowledged that I had an issue, and I also mentioned that I'd overcome them but as with any issue, it takes time to overcome something you've dealt with for years. I must say that day before yesterday, I realized how huge of an issue I was having and reached out to one of my friends who sent the below email to me. When I read and processed the email, it was like instantaneous relief. Her words soothed and spoke to that insecurity and told it that it had no place in my life. SEE BELOW:

Well first off, you are HUMAN! But even more you are SPIRIT!! You have entered into a new realm of life and relationship that has restored EVERYTHING that was snatched. You said this happens SOMETIMES (the insecurity of him leaving) not all the time. Let’s me know this evil spirit that seeks to rob you is seasonal; seasonal from your past life and not allowed to enter into your new one. Recognize your season and ask God to allow HIS power to overtake you in that season. YOU have the power to say what YOUR season will consist of. When evil spirits from past realms try to interact with a good spirits in the new realm, you have to decide which spirit you will allow to dominate.

We all wrestle with them, but you have to show it whose boss!!! If you are in that season right now, make up your mind this day that whether you are screaming for attention from your mate or just want to be reassured he is there, first tell yourself that he is there, speak into existence that he will not leave and vice versa and begin to act on what you have spoken. Your body language and your spoken words, your feelings will begin to be tamed to do and feel what you tell it to do and won’t take on a mind of its own. Think and reminisce often on his embrace, his passion for you, life and you alls love. Not any love but the love you all feel when you are together. Don’t compare it to anyone else’s b/c yours is incomparable. When you feel overwhelmed by an outer spirit, call him (Marcel) and tell him you love him and were just thinking of him and how you are happy that you all crossed paths and how you can’t wait to become one on earth just as you are in heaven. Tell him what you want to see happen and NEVER ask him again if he is going to leave or if mention that to even be a possibility.

Beautiful Surprise

Eye seen it in your eyes as if I caught you by surprise, you quickly realized that I was your beautiful surprise.

A bit perplexed by the quickness of my appearance, you thought, I came & now I'm part of your daily existence.

We ask ourselves how'd God make such an amazing connection, you & me together is God's show of perfection.

More than just a feeling of love, it's deeper, it's grander it's ascended far above.

I can't say I've ever felt this way, I'm open wide open to let the beauty of love have its way.

The fear of being hurt is erased away and replaced with you loving me day after day.