Get Your Own!

Seriously, I am not judgmental in the least bit; however, there are some things that need to spoken on, and today, I need to vent. I don't understand why women aim to cheat with married men. I don't get how those vows are blatantly looked over and not respected. I've been cheated on and it is not a good feeling. I often wondered if the other women thought of me, gave a damn about my feelings or what pain this would cause for my children. Then I realized that this kind of woman is a selfish woman. She is out for self gratification at the expense of others. She is not concerned with wife or kids, but only herself and her immediate needs. She is okay to play second fiddle, or at least she pretends to be. I know being a woman I have to have my emotional side catered to and if I my emotions are being neglected, I can go into straight bitch mode. Now, this is with a man who is not attached to anyone, so I can imagine how I would be in my feelings to know that the man I am intimate with may be laying with his wife at the point I need him the most. He may be hanging out with his family why I sit alone starring at the wall. They prolong these relationships based on the lies these men spit at them about leaving their wives when the truth is as long as the mistress is okay to be a mistress, he doesn't have to bust a move at all. He can have the best of both worlds. The mistress provides an escape from reality and then when she becomes needy, this becomes a problem because now he has to work at the side relationship like the main one and when it comes to choosing which headache he prefers, it will be wifey. The mistress is to be on hand for a good freaking (WHEN HE IS AVAILABLE) and not amount of tricks turned or meals cooked or wining or dining will make a man leave his wife. He has to WANT to do that. The only thing better than good "cookie" is different "cookie." The only thing the mistress provides is a difference and a "break." So, I get aggravated when these sideline chics get entangled in their feelings if someone elses boo isn't available at their beck and call! He isn't yours first of all, and you should have more respect for their vows, if he doesn't. The wife and her feelings, because we are all women and know what heartache feels like and looks like, and for the kids, and THEN for YOURSELF. You should desire more for yourself than a mere LEFTOVER! Do not miss out on what the universe has for you by blocking it with a NEGRO who will never leave for you.Ladies wake up and get your own.

Paint Myself in Love!

Things I love about me:

I love the plumpness of my lips!
I love the little curves that makes my hips!
I love my golden brown skin tone, when I catch my reflection I think, " I'm bad to the bone."
I love the softness of my skin, feels like a newborn baby all over again.
I love the gap in between my teeth, it YOU-NIQUE trait I used to hate.
I love the hole above my ear, a sign that God is near.
I love every part of me, nobody else is capable of defining me.
No need to compete with other people, I can only be me, it's just that simple.
I look in the mirror and imagine my finger to be a paint brush, then I caress every part of me in no big rush. I take care to notice all the small details, and give thanks to God for his beautiful creation. I paint myself in love and pretend others are watching. Try it sometimes and you will be amazed with how much self love is so important.

I love creation... nature!

I love trees and everytime I see one I can feel the energy exuding from every limb, every branch and every leaf. They pocess such a power that I connect with each and every time. In my cellphone, I have numerous pictures of trees; it is a constant reminder of God's creative abilities, and those same creative abilities lie within us. We are powerful entities; however, these powers lay dormant because we don't realize that the gift to create was imparted in us from God. We are made in his reflection and his likeness and he is the ultimate creator so we also are creators. We busy ourselves trying to duplicate and imiate but I believe God has called us to create new things. My prayer is that creative abilities and inspired thoughts are awakened in me. I AM a creator!

I am ?

A few years ago I discovered what " I AM" truly means and it changed me in ways that I never thought it would. By discovering what the I am is, I discovered who I was. The way I felt about myself changed immediately. Low self esteem was replaced with the highest self esteem. Days of looking in the mirror and seeing myself as a mistake was now replaced with assurance that I was made in HIS image; the I AM! I was starring back at a woman who had been fashioned and formed after the very image of the I AM. I realized that to see myself in any other way than a postive light was also seeing the I AM in a negative light. I immediately began to change how I saw myself. I AM who HE is so I am never to degrade myself, belittle myself or others. I am still a work in progress and have to remind myself that I AM and so is everything and everyone around me. We are to remember this in our dealings with people. ALL OF US ARE A DERIVITIVE of the I AM. Think about this, When you introduce yourself to others you introduce your self by saying, I AM Michelle. It starts with the ( I AM) and it ends with the (I AM). I realized that I have to be very careful with what I attach to I am! We walk around saying things like I AM TIRED, I AM POOR, I AM NEVER GOING TO BE ANYTHING, I AM HOPELESS, I AM SICK, I AM DEPRESSED --- the I AM is GOD, so anything that follows I AM CAN NOT be negative. I am LIFE, I AM love, I AM PEACE, I AM HOPE, I AM WELL, I AM HEALTHY, I AM WHOLE, I AM FULL OF LIFE, I AM CREATIVE, I AM GIVING, I AM KIND, I AM ABUNDANT, I AM BEAUTIFUL . Anything else is a false reality that you have created. When you realize that I AM is GOD and you are a reflection of GOD, that which follows I AM will not be anything other than a TRUE depiction of who GOD IS. You can not be separated from the I AM; the I AM is your POWER SOURCE, and when that ceases to exist, you cease to exist. The spirit or I AM never dies; it is energy, YOU ARE ENERGY.. positive energy. I AM that I AM - so every time you say I AM realize that you are speaking in terms of GOD. Watch what follows I AM!

I am my own creator!

I can only control me. As much as I would like to control the actions of others, I am learning that MY life is the one in which God has assigned me CREATOR! I have wasted a lot of thought on others, when I should have been working on improving myself. Time for a much needed change.

Title Finally !

Rainbows in My Clouds!