Today's Relationship Affirmation

I will build up and not tear down.
I will always show love.
I will be aware of my attitude at all times, even in difficult times.

Tears for Haiti, I cry!

The images of dead, hungry & injured haitians affect me, I cry.

Children disconnected from parents who are now lost and displaced, I cry!

Watching the looks of desperation in their eyes, wondering if God will hear their cries, I Cry!

Seeing bloody, limpless & lifeless bodies pulled from the rubble, I cry!

Hearing the stories of how their lives flashed before them, I cry!

When will help arrive before other Haitians have to die, I cry!

God please bless the Haitian, boys, girls, women & men, I cry!

January 24, 2010

On this day forty years ago, little did I know that my soul twin would be born. The man who would show up in my life and take me by storm. The man who would love every inch of pain away. The man who would brighten each and every one of my days. The man who knows every part of me. The man who knows what I am capable of being. God knew that I needed this man and this man needed me. It would take us would take thirty eight years to connect and realize we needed each other. He was preparing this man to be able to love me that way I needed to be loved, kiss me the way I needed to be kissed, hold me the way I needed to be held, honor me the way I needed to be honor. God formed and fashioned me through my trials and tribulations to be equipped to love this man. To speak life to this man, to hold this man up in prayer, to open my heart up so that his love could flow in. God knew that we needed each other. I am so glad that God created this man to be. The day he did that he knew that he would love me. Happy Birthday to my lover, my friend, my everything... !

Spiritual Connection

Grew up in a home where God was at the forefront so spirituality is a HUGE part of my life. It is embedded in me and when I was praying for a mate, spirituality was a huge connection that we had to share; no ifs, ands, buts about it. I didn't particuarly care about the denomination part of it, but he would have to know who God was, and be able to reach out to him. So, when my desires were manifested and this man arrived in my life I was elated. I am so grateful to have a man in my life who is spiritually connected, and doesn't mind allowing me to see that side of him and further, experience God with him. That brings about an intimacy that is unmatched. Spirituality is the tie that binds us moreso than any physical tie every could. We are using this week as a week of fasting and reflecting. We are so in sync it is amazing to me. He text me this morning at 6:30 (highly unusual because he is late riser) I woke up at 4:30. He text me and said baby, let's pray from 6:30 to 6:40 individually. That was the most beautiful, and powerful and confirming thing yet. It was a very defining part of our relationship in that it reminds me to be VERY grateful for what I have. Most married people don't have our connection.

Haitian Crisis

I must dedicate this space to my feelings concerning the recent natural crisis that affected so many Haitians. I was so saddened to hear about the news of this earthquake shaking up and destroying a country who is already poverty stricken & trying to recover from hurricanes that they were hugely impacted by as well. The media is doing a great job in covering this story as we can all get a view and understand the sense of urgency when it comes down to donating money to assist in helping so many impacted by the earthquake. There are several ways to donate that are convenient for everyone.

Of course, there is always going to be negativity in the news as well, and I for the life of me can't figure out why any negativity can come from something already so hugely devastating. For instance, Rush Limbaugh ( LUCIFER IN HUMAN FORM) comments were totally stupid!!! Yes, the US troops are generally used to defend and protect our nation; however, the US is known for supporting other nations in crisis and providing AID so why stop now. I can't help but wonder if his comments were in part due to the race of the people....hmmmmm!!! Yes there are organizations such as the RED CROSS set up to do this job; however, due to the extent of this disaster, and the urgency, all hands should be on deck and no-one should be againt is. He is a staunch racist liberal who needs to be banned from the airways.. One thing I can applaud him for, and that is being consistently ignorant. Then of course you have christian zealots such as Robert Roberts, who said that bascially these people got what they deserved due their long history of witch craft!!! I would rebut that but for the sake of causing a riot on the WORLD WIBE WEB, I will leave it this, God is a God of love. He doesn't cause this type of devastation as a means of punishment. If that were the case, there would be no world to speak of... ONE WORD, SLAVERY. Where does the punishment come in there?!

I will not drag that post out giving energy to these very obvious heartless human beings. The most important thing is helping these people out who are is dire need of the worlds assistance. So many people have lost lives, lost loved ones, lost homes, and we all can do our part. It's all about giving back.

Contact your local Red Cross to give back!!!!

Today, the boyfriend and I will starting on a waterfast for the duration of this week. For those of you who don't know what a fast is, this is the definition: Fasting is voluntarily not eating food for varying lengths of time. Fasting is used as a medical therapy for many conditions. It is also a spiritual practice in many religions.

My reason for fasting is 1.) Lack of energy, increased headaches, and aches in joints AND 2.) greater spiritual clarity.

The fast will be challenging but beneficial & the benefits far outweigh the challenges. I am geared up and ready to tackle the uncomfortablity for a few days in order to see the positive side that this fast will present. Even more, I am glad to be doing this with my sweetie. There will be no physical getting down during this time either...... WE CAN DO IT, yes we can.

God Send

I've blogged before about insecurity issues. I acknowledged that I had an issue, and I also mentioned that I'd overcome them but as with any issue, it takes time to overcome something you've dealt with for years. I must say that day before yesterday, I realized how huge of an issue I was having and reached out to one of my friends who sent the below email to me. When I read and processed the email, it was like instantaneous relief. Her words soothed and spoke to that insecurity and told it that it had no place in my life. SEE BELOW:

Well first off, you are HUMAN! But even more you are SPIRIT!! You have entered into a new realm of life and relationship that has restored EVERYTHING that was snatched. You said this happens SOMETIMES (the insecurity of him leaving) not all the time. Let’s me know this evil spirit that seeks to rob you is seasonal; seasonal from your past life and not allowed to enter into your new one. Recognize your season and ask God to allow HIS power to overtake you in that season. YOU have the power to say what YOUR season will consist of. When evil spirits from past realms try to interact with a good spirits in the new realm, you have to decide which spirit you will allow to dominate.

We all wrestle with them, but you have to show it whose boss!!! If you are in that season right now, make up your mind this day that whether you are screaming for attention from your mate or just want to be reassured he is there, first tell yourself that he is there, speak into existence that he will not leave and vice versa and begin to act on what you have spoken. Your body language and your spoken words, your feelings will begin to be tamed to do and feel what you tell it to do and won’t take on a mind of its own. Think and reminisce often on his embrace, his passion for you, life and you alls love. Not any love but the love you all feel when you are together. Don’t compare it to anyone else’s b/c yours is incomparable. When you feel overwhelmed by an outer spirit, call him (Marcel) and tell him you love him and were just thinking of him and how you are happy that you all crossed paths and how you can’t wait to become one on earth just as you are in heaven. Tell him what you want to see happen and NEVER ask him again if he is going to leave or if mention that to even be a possibility.

Beautiful Surprise

Eye seen it in your eyes as if I caught you by surprise, you quickly realized that I was your beautiful surprise.

A bit perplexed by the quickness of my appearance, you thought, I came & now I'm part of your daily existence.

We ask ourselves how'd God make such an amazing connection, you & me together is God's show of perfection.

More than just a feeling of love, it's deeper, it's grander it's ascended far above.

I can't say I've ever felt this way, I'm open wide open to let the beauty of love have its way.

The fear of being hurt is erased away and replaced with you loving me day after day.