All Good!

This too is passing and we are now back to where we were. ;)

Back to the basics!

IN April 2008, I was in a very positive place. I changed my way of thinking and it was my daily goal to be a light to everyone I met. It was working for me, and I think I will return to that way of thinking. Negative thinking is not what's up at all. Reading " The Secret," changed my life. If you've grown accustomed to one way of thinking, it can be a challenge to undo it, but I like the results I get when I am on that positive frequency so I will stay there no matter what.

I am whole, perfect, powerful, strong, loving, harmonious and happy.

Crying out to you

Well Lord, I don't know what will come of this temporary separation between my baby and I, but I trust that all is well and all will be well. It is taking great constraint not to pick up the phone just to hear his voice or to text him a hello to see if he slept well, but in my spirit, I feel that space is needed. I have been extra clingy and needy for no good reason. God, my heart hurts right now because I don't know the outcome, but I do know you. I know that when I prayed for a man to come into my life who would make me a better person, you sent him and I don't believe in my heart this is the end of us. I believe it is a start to a new beginning. I am using this time to focus on me, and my insecurities, and selfishness, and praying that you will allow me to see myself. I know you've not blessed me with a love this great only to take it away. I ask you to forgive me for abusing the gift you've blessed me with and I pray you will allow me the opportunity to start anew. God I thank you for sending him to me and I pray for a new beginning.

It is well

Reminding myself to just "BE" and focus on the good things in my life. It is well with my soul and God is a restorer. I am trusting God to handle every situation in my life and to give me peace of mind while he is doing it. I know HE will keep me in perfect peace as long as I keep my mind stayed on him. I will not speak death or think death. I will focus on life in every area of my life.

Voyage

I am going on a journey within for the next week or so to rid myself of some lingering insecurities. I want to be the best me for me and those in my life. I no longer want to be the reason why relationships end. I am willing to look at myself with a magnifying glass and see things that I otherwise wouldn't see in order to make ME better. My first marriage has left me me with scars and insecurities that are somehow managing to creep their way into my current relationship, and is causing problems. I WILL NOT ALLOW THIS TO HAPPEN!!! I am pulling myself back from everything, everybody, that is a distraction at this point and am going to do some self healing. No facebook, no twitter, no nothing. NO extra t.v. phone calls, etc. It's all about me getting myself together for my future to be. I'm going on a voyage.